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Hey whats up ... well today is an intresting day or shall i say date ... its 9-10-11 ... its the start of a new life for me ... not too many people get a 3rd chance at living life again yet a 2nd chance ... but i did ... i only have one person to thank and that is the Almighty Lord ... His mercy he showed me and spare me from...alot of bad stuff ... He is Amazing and I am living proof that miracles do happen! ... and twice it happened to me ... a year ago as i laied in the hospital bed, i was diagnosed with liver failure ... liver failure is my liver had died, kapoop, blop, ... like a dead organ just sitting laying around chillin in my body ... i really thought it was gonna be the end for me this time ... i was told there was no way of saving it because its completely dead so the only way i will survive thru this was to have a transplant and getting on the waiting list doesnt even guarantee that you'll get one ... also the doctor said i would be very lucky to live to see my next birthday, which is this coming monday on September 12th ... i was speechless, in awe, or whatever you call it ... how would anyone react if they was told they was gonna die within 6 months time ? ... i dont know how i did it but i knew deep down inside i still have some hope and faith left ... months gone by, battling depression, hunger, anger, everything ... i turned into this ugly bitter hateful monster of a person that i never thought i could be ... and so God sent Msee back into my life ... she showed me the way to fight, struggle, deal with everything ... as much has it annoyed her as she always say, she kept on believing in me and helped build my hope and faith ... and so on and so on ... without her coming into the right time i needed someone the most, i wouldnt know if i'd even still be here today ... she has lead me out of the dark path and into the light ... i feel like i owe her my life because without her, who knows what might have happened to me ... i love her soo much for always caring and encouraging me to keep presevering on ... she is my little special angel as they call it, sent by God to come slap some sense back into me ... I Love You my Msee hehehe ... so anyways i went to my scheduled appt, which was suppose to be back in march but they kept rescheduling and rescheduling into september 9th, which was yesterday ... i had alot of good vibes as i went to the hospital... but right at check in i was overcame with nervousness but that didnt fade me ... so went in, did my check up, waited for the doctor to come in and deliver me the news of how my progress has been ... as soon as he opened the door i just knew, i just knew it was full of good news ... it was like as soon as he opened the door to come greet me, there was a brighter light shining into the room ... he said to me " Hello Mr. Her you look great and i dont even have to ask you a question because i already know that you're doing very well from the last time i saw you. I can tell that you have stopped drinking completely which helped brought back to life my liver and its recovering." ... i just wanted to jump up and scream my thanks to the Lord who has guided my path to where i am today ... i will always remember that day because i had felt like i was given new life and another chance to live my life what God had intended me to do ... I couldnt wait to get home and share my good news and happiness with her ... but we shall not get into that because i dont want to remember it hahah ... it was like i won the lottery and went bankrupt in the very same day ... i was soo worried and sad that i had lost her ... sometimes when its hard to express what your heart feels and you express it thru words, the words always comes out wrong ... i was so afraid that i would lose her forever ... but i didnt so yeah thanks God for stopping her from leaving me hahah ... i still need her very much in my life to help walk this new path with me and holding each others hand so we both dont fall or stray out of this path ... Im felt so happy that she gave me a chance to explain myself ... I'm so sorry Msee ... I would never say such hurtful words to you just to hurt you... It just came out wrong and hurtful ... Youve been such a blessing and a best friend to me, i would never say those words to you from my tongue ... I can honestly say I Love You not because you are hot hahaha but because you are a beautiful person inside and out ... The most caring and loving person i've ever known ... most compassionate person ever ... i can go on forever but i know you're gonna read this later so thats it ok hehe ... I'm ready to start this new life with her if she would only accept ... so until then, i hope and pray she will still hold my hand and walk with me thru this road called Life ... I Love You Msee, and i owe my life to you Jesus and Thank You for giving me your life so that i can have new life ... enuff rambling because i need to call this woman before she goes to sleep ! ... until next time mr blog, remember this ok ... Because of Gods mercy and will, i am still here today writing to you. God is truely Amazing and really does work in mysterious ways ... Lastly I Love You too ok Msee hehehe ... latersssssssss !